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truth
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when I close my eyes and listen to this song I can almost fool myself into thinking you are here
try not to feel like you're nothing without me. you would be something, a very special, amazing something. you aren't a part of me, you are a separate entity that helps me complete who I want to be, and I look to return the favor. you make me immensely happy and though we could live independent of each other, I much prefer our current situation. never think you need me to survive, I'm simply here to make surviving more enjoyable. like today, you've chosen to be separate from me, and I respect that choice. you never HAVE to spend time with me.
on an unrelated note, you concerned me a bit today. your confidence seems almost nonexistent, though it should be very prominent in someone as capable as you. you seem to not understand how much you are set apart not only from people your own age but from people in general. you are much more intelligent, beautiful, level-headed, and many more traits i could go on to name than most people achieve in their lifetime. most people with such traits would be as narcissistic as I once was lol. you have every right to be confident, you should feel more like I'm lucky to be with you, because I truly am. there actually was a time where I thought you might not be interested me, you said you weren't looking for anything serious and when I got to know you I most definitely was. you altered the course of my life in a way I think only I can truly realize <3
when I close my eyes and listen to this song I can almost fool myself into thinking you are here
try not to feel like you're nothing without me. you would be something, a very special, amazing something. you aren't a part of me, you are a separate entity that helps me complete who I want to be, and I look to return the favor. you make me immensely happy and though we could live independent of each other, I much prefer our current situation. never think you need me to survive, I'm simply here to make surviving more enjoyable. like today, you've chosen to be separate from me, and I respect that choice. you never HAVE to spend time with me.
on an unrelated note, you concerned me a bit today. your confidence seems almost nonexistent, though it should be very prominent in someone as capable as you. you seem to not understand how much you are set apart not only from people your own age but from people in general. you are much more intelligent, beautiful, level-headed, and many more traits i could go on to name than most people achieve in their lifetime. most people with such traits would be as narcissistic as I once was lol. you have every right to be confident, you should feel more like I'm lucky to be with you, because I truly am. there actually was a time where I thought you might not be interested me, you said you weren't looking for anything serious and when I got to know you I most definitely was. you altered the course of my life in a way I think only I can truly realize <3
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challenge accepted
4 min read
4:07 am 03/08/12
awake since aprox. 7:45 am 03/07/12
the last time I did something like this was about three years ago, I had to work from 3-11 then go back in at 7 the next morning lol. this is kinda fun to do this just for the hell of it. just cooked up my second pot of coffee! coffee makers everywhere will rejoice every time we do something like this xD
you're earning some cool points as well, definitely the most fun girlfriend in the history of ever! your competitive nature tempered with your ability to compromise makes you just so freaking amazing, you have no clue! btw, I'm going to school you in minigolf tomorrow, assuming we don't decide to take a nap on the course lol. just one more thing to turn into a competition.
THIS IS SO AWESOME!! im not tired at all in fact I'm less tired than I usually am in the mornings lol. I feel like I should do this once or twice a week so I can have all night to do what ever I want! that's six/seven hours of my day I get back. though the lack of insane dreams is inconvenient, but way worth the extra hours in the day. I pumped myself full of coffee and I can feel it lol. I'm probably done with coffee for the day, at least until the night comes back and I have to stave off sleepiness once again. I feel so spastic and twitchy lol. eventually my body will burn through the coffee in my system and I won't have the urge to go conquer something, I'll be able to type without spazzing and typoing left and right too, looking forward to that. though I wonder if the coffee is the reason I'm spazzing, because it could definitely be due to my excitement for today!! in about three hours I'll be picking you up for an amazing day together, and I feel like I could beat chuck norris when he was in his prime! and I have you to thank for this state of ecstasy. I feel like my whole life I've been laying plans, outlining how I want things to go, and you just fit them all so perfectly. you are the centerpiece to my life, not just as it is now, but my life in its entirety. im not sure why I had to wait so long to find you, but I'm so very glad that I did. <3
typoes corrected in the writing of this post: 13
xD
it always goes like this, every day I spend with you tops the day before it, so I feel like the amazingness will never stop growing! today was definitely the best day of our relationship....so far lol. It will be topped at some point, definitely. but today was like something out of a fairy tale. the way I felt, the way you made me feel today, is indescribable. I tell you that I love you because i do, but I feel like I need to show you how much I love you, saying it is never strong enough. today couldn't have been better in my mind, between the golf guy treating us like VIP's to the intense wrestling match we had (which was thoroughly enjoyable btw, you may have felt like you didn't stand a chance, but you put up one hell of a fight). I love spending time with you, more than I've ever enjoyed my time with anyone else. you are more astounding than you recognize.
also, I WILL stay up longer than you. just so you know.
awake since aprox. 7:45 am 03/07/12
the last time I did something like this was about three years ago, I had to work from 3-11 then go back in at 7 the next morning lol. this is kinda fun to do this just for the hell of it. just cooked up my second pot of coffee! coffee makers everywhere will rejoice every time we do something like this xD
you're earning some cool points as well, definitely the most fun girlfriend in the history of ever! your competitive nature tempered with your ability to compromise makes you just so freaking amazing, you have no clue! btw, I'm going to school you in minigolf tomorrow, assuming we don't decide to take a nap on the course lol. just one more thing to turn into a competition.
THIS IS SO AWESOME!! im not tired at all in fact I'm less tired than I usually am in the mornings lol. I feel like I should do this once or twice a week so I can have all night to do what ever I want! that's six/seven hours of my day I get back. though the lack of insane dreams is inconvenient, but way worth the extra hours in the day. I pumped myself full of coffee and I can feel it lol. I'm probably done with coffee for the day, at least until the night comes back and I have to stave off sleepiness once again. I feel so spastic and twitchy lol. eventually my body will burn through the coffee in my system and I won't have the urge to go conquer something, I'll be able to type without spazzing and typoing left and right too, looking forward to that. though I wonder if the coffee is the reason I'm spazzing, because it could definitely be due to my excitement for today!! in about three hours I'll be picking you up for an amazing day together, and I feel like I could beat chuck norris when he was in his prime! and I have you to thank for this state of ecstasy. I feel like my whole life I've been laying plans, outlining how I want things to go, and you just fit them all so perfectly. you are the centerpiece to my life, not just as it is now, but my life in its entirety. im not sure why I had to wait so long to find you, but I'm so very glad that I did. <3
typoes corrected in the writing of this post: 13
xD
it always goes like this, every day I spend with you tops the day before it, so I feel like the amazingness will never stop growing! today was definitely the best day of our relationship....so far lol. It will be topped at some point, definitely. but today was like something out of a fairy tale. the way I felt, the way you made me feel today, is indescribable. I tell you that I love you because i do, but I feel like I need to show you how much I love you, saying it is never strong enough. today couldn't have been better in my mind, between the golf guy treating us like VIP's to the intense wrestling match we had (which was thoroughly enjoyable btw, you may have felt like you didn't stand a chance, but you put up one hell of a fight). I love spending time with you, more than I've ever enjoyed my time with anyone else. you are more astounding than you recognize.
also, I WILL stay up longer than you. just so you know.
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always thinking
2 min read
on my way back home I was listening to music at first, but then I turned it off because I didn't want to wear down what little music I have, and while I was driving I had an imaginary conversation that I though you'd like to hear:
Your mom: So how many people have you dated?
Me: Too many. For a long time I was searching for someone worthwhile, but most of those relationships only lasted a few weeks at the most. I'm a decisive man, it didn't take me long to decide on them. I was actually in a committed relationship when I met Katie. Liya and I had been dating for almost a year at that point, but I knew Katie was special very quickly. Liya was worth my time, but just barely. I feel like Katie isn't just worth my time, but almost like she deserves it, like I would be wrong not to give her everything I have to offer.
there was a bit more to the conversation but I can't remember it at the moment. I actually jump from thought to thought, so that conversation wasn't really consistent. though I realized that 80% of time you are at least in the background of my thoughts
Your mom: So how many people have you dated?
Me: Too many. For a long time I was searching for someone worthwhile, but most of those relationships only lasted a few weeks at the most. I'm a decisive man, it didn't take me long to decide on them. I was actually in a committed relationship when I met Katie. Liya and I had been dating for almost a year at that point, but I knew Katie was special very quickly. Liya was worth my time, but just barely. I feel like Katie isn't just worth my time, but almost like she deserves it, like I would be wrong not to give her everything I have to offer.
there was a bit more to the conversation but I can't remember it at the moment. I actually jump from thought to thought, so that conversation wasn't really consistent. though I realized that 80% of time you are at least in the background of my thoughts
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Untitled
1 min read
i will destroy you!
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resolution
1 min read
Today I felt really bored and sleepy as soon as I left my house. I was skating around, and every time I stood still for more than second or two, I felt like I was going to just pass out right there in public and take a nap. then you got there, and i suddenly woke up. I don't believe this was a coincidence, because soon after we parted ways I entered a similar form of zombification. I just felt so tired and uninterested while I was walking around target, all I wanted to do was lay down and take a nap right there on the floor, because life was just so....bland. when i'm not with you life is fuzzy, and out of focus, because I don't care to pay attention. as far as I'm concerned, you are the only thing worth paying attention to. <3
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